Your Relationship With God (Page 2 of 2)
How about your trust in God? Do you trust God? Most people do not fully trust God. Do you perceive the essential OKness in everything that you get, that whatever displeases you in any fashion is there to teach you something? Or are you stuck in your right-wrong beliefs that so often make you feel self-righteous, yet oh so unhappy? If you believe that whatever you get is in your best interests, then you can trust God. Otherwise, you are stuck with a likely vengeful God who needs to be feared.
How about a friendship with God? Do you have that? Do you believe that is possible? What would that look like to you? Walsch's Friendship With God is an outstanding book several hundred pages long which discusses ideas about possible friendships with God. Use his book to ask yourself questions about your own relationship with God- where am I going, how can I make my friendship deeper, etc. Do you feel close to God? How could you get closer? Is it OK to use God or is it best to keep requests to a minimum?
How about demanding things from God? Is this OK? In Walsch's book, demanding things of God most certainly is OK and is encouraged. This may seem wrong to you initially, but is the Lord's Prayer itself not filled with demands (i.e. "Give us this day... Lead us not into temptation... Deliver us from evil")? If your idea is that God is to be feared, then demanding things of God will most surely feel very wrong to you.
My overall recommendation: make a few small efforts to develop your own friendship with God, a friendship that becomes a part of your day, if only briefly. This does not have to follow Walsh's pattern at all!!! Your love for God and God's love for you are readily available to be felt. Why are you denying yourself? Just turning your attention to these matters is often enough to start the ball rolling. (i.e. You get what you concentrate on.)